Sunday, July 30, 2006
The Male-Zelator Degree
As we mature and confront reality we also deal with lower emotional baggage. This level is the awakening of the conscience. Normally this development takes place around ten or twelve years of age. I was fourteen when it happened to me.
Sadly it might never take place in some cases. The development of our ego can not continue in a healthy manner until this stage is completed. Most of us have a conscience but we might not always listen to it.
This degree has two levels of thought. In the first part of this degree we hear the voice of our conscience and either ignore it or give lip service to spiritual and noble goals. We have good intentions but identify with our physical body and human ego. We feel unworthy to have the things we desire. We go to church on Sunday but keep falling short of our own expectations.
In religious terms we don't want to sin but we still do. Every day we do things over and over again that we are ashamed of and despair. We are sinners. We are unworthy. We think evil thoughts.
Heavy feelings of guilt and self loathing are encountered at this level of thought. A powerful force digs up our deepest subconscious psychic contents and exposes them openly to us. We are brought face to face with every word we ever regretted, every thought we were ashamed of.
We feel little more than animals mindlessly reacting to physical and emotional stimulus. We are brought face to face with the mirror of our soul. We don't care if God/dess forgives us because we can't forgive ourselves.
This is a very hard time and many flee in terror at what they see in the mirror. They spend the rest of their lives in misery, guilt and shame, hating themselves and dreading the day they must face their final reward. This is the crisis point of the Zelator degree that must be crossed.
Once we have crossed this point we hear the call "repent sinner". We change our lives and live differently. We no longer identify with our physical body. Instead we identify with our immortal body that lives on after death.
"He who believes shall never die."
"You must be born again into a new spiritual body."
"You must be saved."
These are the messages we hear at this critical stage of ego development. Our conscience is erupting and when we are ready to listen huge changes take place in our lives.
There is a mental shift where life becomes a test and trial that is necessary to pass before we earn eternal salvation. If we can look in the mirror and do the best we can every day the inner voice of our conscience will forgive us for the errors we make.
Most importantly we learn to forgive ourselves. As we accept the inner voice of our conscience and strive to follow it we grow spiritually.
In this second level we are "born again". We identify with a spiritual body or soul that is immortal. We get excited about the idea of living forever.
Because the ego is self-centered there is a feeling of separateness from others that occurs along with the joy of being "saved". There is a sense of isolation and terrible loneliness that is bitter-sweet. We want others to experience what we have. It is hard to accept that others may not agree with us. We are forever alone with a unique personal perspective and path meant only for us.
When we try to share this perspective we can't and this realization is devastating. The things that are so important to us simply do not matter to others. They laugh and ridicule us. Still this loneliness is the result of distorted thinking. We are never really alone because the entire universe is always a part of us and we are a vital part of it. Others don't need to follow our path. They need to follow their path.
Our realization and experience of being "born again" causes us to weep for the loneliness and suffering of humanity. So much misery does not need to exist. People don't understand what they are missing. At this point we develop compassion in our hearts for others. As we share our message and interact with others we become less lonely.
Our sharing becomes more mental as the material world becomes less important. Slowly concepts gain strength and reality over our lives. We live through conscious intent and will instead of passing fancy.
As this happens the emotions lose their control over our lives. We gain control over them and repress them until they are almost non existent. As this happens we depend more and more upon reason and logic.
This is a very painful period because we sense the coming death of the emotions. Life is no longer as fun as it once was. We have lost our "inner child". Life without emotions is no longer life.
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Tuesday, July 25, 2006
Chapter 1A-The Male-Neophyte Degree
The main point is even if different terms are used the experiences described are the same. There is a universal experience that is true for all people even if it is highly subjective. Therefore these next chapters are tied together in a way that builds on what went before. What they propose is a progressive ladder or stairway we each must travel in the process of healthy ego development.
With a little imagination and memory work you will be able to identify personally with almost every stage that is listed. We achieve these stages all the time but do not recognize them for what they are.
They offer a type of initiation that will act as a catalyst for personal growth and healing. While my examples may not be strictly accurate they should be very evocative and I would welcome comments that would help smooth these concepts out a little more.
NEOPHYTE DEGREE
In this degree the Neophyte or newborn begins explorations of the ego. What I'm really saying here is we move from an animal awareness into an awareness of "self". Typically many of these levels are dealt with naturally during childhood. Each must be developed before we can move on and mature in a healthy way.
This degree has eight levels of awareness. Each level deals with personal limitations and how our developing ego grows and adjusts to confront and gradually master these limitations. I don't know of any order or sequence these areas may fall into. I do know we are not complete until we have explored and come to terms with these areas.
There are many similarities with Erickson's "eight stages of Man". Those familiar with his work will find this addition especially interesting.
Limitations of Language. So often in our lives words are inadequate to express the depth of our emotions and the intent of our actions. We feel no one understands us, no one will listen to what we are trying to say. Gradually we accept that we have a unique perspective on life and many things that happen in our lives will remain forever secret between ourselves and the God of our hearts. We are not able to share them with others and we will never be able to share them.
At least this is the healthy way things should be. All too often we expect others to understand and have insight into our personal situation. We want to think our loved ones know us but the reality is that no one can really know us that deeply, not even our loved ones.
Limitations of action. We learn very rapidly in life that certain things are acceptable and others are not. We think things are unfair. Why are bad things happening to us? Why can't we do the things we want to do?
We learn there are consequences to our actions, that action causes reaction and we are in the highest sense responsible for our actions. We learn to do the right things at the right times so we are socially acceptable.
Our parents are a great help in this regard. We do unto others as we would have them do unto us. These are the beginning insights into the cosmic law of karma, cause and effect. They are also the beginnings of our natural sense of justice and fairness. There is pride in knowing that we have earned the rewards we get in life.
Sadly generations of children are being raised without learning that their actions have natural consequences. Parents over protect their children and let them get away with things. How can children be expected to know how to behave when they turn eighteen if mom or dad has always come to the rescue?
Limitations of emotions. This deals directly with our strongest personal desires. Often we want things so badly we would do or give anything to achieve them. We feel hurt, anger and helplessness when they are taken out of our reach. We WANT these things and we can't have them. This is especially true in relationships that involve other people. In time we learn to desire things that are within our grasp and our abilities.
It is very important our sights are aimed high early because otherwise we will lose our desire to succeed in life. Unfortunately many parents have killed the higher ambitions in their children by not giving them the emotional support they need when they need it. This is often during the critical teenage years.
Personal limitations. Now we deal with the limitations of our own newly developing ego. We realize our perceived shortcomings. Life is not fair. Why is my nose so big? Why am I so fat? Why am I so tall? Does any of this sound familiar? We come face to face with what we have been given in life and react with intense personal dissatisfaction. As we mature hopefully we grow above these things and accept ourselves as we are.
Learning to love ourselves goes hand in hand with believing in our abilities. This means to expose ourselves to life and be successful in our own eyes.
We are Gods and Goddesses
Here we ponder what it would be like to live for ever and ever. As children we feel immortal and nothing can harm us. Life is huge and just goes on and on. We have no control over this at all. Awareness just goes on and on and on. We have a destiny to fulfill whether we want to or not. We believe we are important and have an important part to play in the universe.
Some children are told they will be judged according to their deeds and sentenced to heaven or hell upon death. Others exposed to reincarnation at an early age will see karma as a wheel of life where we are born again and again until we get some meaningless lesson right. It is easy to feel helpless and small as we consider these forces of destiny.
Right and Wrong. Here we deal with our desire for revenge and the destruction of the wicked. We know through our parents and others the difference between right and wrong. We try to do the right things and God help those who are doing the wrong things. We are on their case in an instant. As children we tattle and as adults we turn others in to the authorities. We feel a strong desire for reward and recognition because we are doing the RIGHT things. We also fear the pain and humiliation of punishment.
We' re given an early understanding of life. We have now mastered the fundamentals. The stories and dogmas have been read to us. Our questions have been answered and our thoughts carefully directed to conform with the wisdom of our elders.
In their infinite wisdom they assure us there is nothing more to learn. Our education is over and we can take our place as adults even if we don't feel like adults. We do this through ceremonies such as confirmation, baptism, and graduation. There is a strong sense of stagnation and we no longer question the way things are. Sadly many adults seem to be stuck at this stage of ego development.
Death.People die, animals die, plants die and we have a growing realization that we too will someday die. It is inevitable. What happens after we die? Where do we go? Is there life without the physical body? Does it hurt to die? Are ghosts real and can they hurt us?
Our parents and churches tell us we will go to heaven. They tell us heaven is the most beautiful place we can imagine. But they also tell us about hell and damnation. If we do not believe certain things and do certain things we will go straight to hell with eternal agony and torment. We need to save our immortal soul by not doing things our bodies want us to do. We learn to not trust our own bodies and instincts. We learn to die.
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Friday, July 21, 2006
OAK:Magister Templi
OAK: MAGISTER TEMPLI
Advanced Concepts In Metaphysics
CHAPTER 1: DUALITY/ THE MALE
CHAPTER 2: DUALITY/ THE FEMALE
CHAPTER 3: DUALITY/ SEXUAL ALCHEMY
CHAPTER 4: MEDITATION
CHAPTER 5: CHAOS
CHAPTER 6: SPIRITUAL LIGHT AND THE SEVEN SEALS
CHAPTER 7: THE ASTRAL PLANES
CHAPTER 8: LIFE ENERGY
CHAPTER 9: SEXUAL ENERGY
CHAPTER 10: MAGICKAL ENERGY
CHAPTER 11: THE LUNAR CYCLE
CHAPTER 12: THE SOLAR CYCLE
CHAPTER 13: THE PROCESS
CHAPTER 14: DEATH
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